Last night I told Zer something I've never talked about with anybody before. I'm not even sure why I did it, maybe just because I wanted to talk about Meghan and why I feel like part of what happened to her is my responsibility. I was a bad friend to her, and I don't like to remember that, but it's true nevertheless. And that's something I can never forget about or change.

So now there's one person who knows.

And I'm still not sure how that makes me feel.